Philosophically, one thing that is really interesting to me is the idea that [insert whatever word you have for the strange fact that existence is even a thing, i.e. the universe, god, space-time, structures of random biological and organic existence, whatever....] is trapped in a kind of psychological need as much as we are. because otherwise...why would consciousness be a thing?
the way I look at it, the reason for our existence comes down to the same thing in all scenarios. it's the only way for consciousness to be. and if consciousness is a kind of [evolutionary] or [spiritual] result of non-consciousness, which really just means a structure based on absolutes instead of dualisms, then that absolute state, where consciousness was unconscious, where everything exists in a full spectrum, is something we are essentially willing to give up for the potentially tragic, boring, hurtful, horrifying etc. experience of a shared linguistic space.
so if [God] would rather be trapped in that space, not knowing where it leads than have ultimate power alone, what does that mean for who we are, what our existence is without consciousness and what we are essentially looking for?
so at the bottom of absolutes is a dualism which drives experience.
spiritualists call that love as if it's some overarching absolute but it's not absolute. its this constant nagging need for intimacy which involves other.
it's the goal of all desire. so we create this whole world where we make up an other by splitting ourselves in half for a moment of intimacy. and people run around so desperately looking for some kind of shared experience. be it sex, conversation, relationships, on all levels of the human decency spectrum, including forced and free when it is happening in any moment of time right in front of their face...
if you were to anthropomorphize it, it seems like God is incredibly lonely. but I think the truth at the bottom of this, which we are ignoring is that we aren't driven by "love" or "intimacy", we are driven by a constant hamster wheel of DESIRE, beyond materialism and beyond idealism.
And even God doesn't have a choice when it comes to desire because the foundation of an absolute non-conscious existence is the possibility of its opposite.